March 2012
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Ode to An Idiot
Why do you act the way you do?
Is it early onset senility or early-exposure drug usage?
Why do you have the memory of a hamster?
Is it early onset senility or early-exposure drug usage?
Why must we go over the same things over and over again?
Is it early onset senility or early-exposure drug usage?
Why do you not respond to my emails either completely or at all?
Is it early onset senility...
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Confirmed
Okay. I finally FIGURED IT ALL OUT. I am definitely allergic to chemicals. For two days, I slept on my old bed, which was covered with a plastic cover (put there for my roommate). Low and behold, my symptoms increased in severity! I took off the cover and they went down.
I also remembered that in 2007, when I starting getting symptoms, I had my bathroom and hallway re-painted because I was...
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Cat Shit
How strange. Not 4 days after my roommate left, my mom calls me to tell me that she has to do out-patient treatment for her liver and may need someone to care for her. Of course I volunteered my bedroom. I have to find a temp home for my cat though. The other elephant in the room is that, how am I going to meet my expenses without a roommate?
My sister and I had a talk, which devolved into...
Life Among the Savages
My interview tomorrow was just cancelled! They found someone. Grime-y! I only planned out my ENTIRE week based on the interview. It was for a paid gig in May. I even used my charge card to get an outfit to wear. Thankfully, I found out before I trudged to Kinkos to get copies for my portfolio.
And, the other short film shoot that I was supposed to do but backed out was canceled after the...
Looking for a Sign
I asked for a sign as to whether I should to forward with getting a new roommate. Well, I went into the bedroom where my old roommate was staying and found that the window gate was not fully locked, plus the window was open. I had told her several times that it’s really hard to lock but it’s really important because the window is off the fire escape. So basically, anyone could have...
From All Sides
Getting hit from all sides. My roommate moved out last night and because the door was propped open, the cigarette smoke from a new neighbor poured into the apartment. On top of that, there’s a mildew smell in the area I’m sleeping in. The building manager gave me a mold kit yesterday to set up.
And lastly, while I was sleeping, this mysterious odor that’s been occurring since...
Isn't It Ironic?
My best friend, who lives in LA, also now needs a roommate! She has a huge apartment in downtown LA. It has 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms so each person has her own bathroom!
It would be perfect!
Meanwhile, I have to see two more people tonight. I’m about to throw in the towel and just say F it.
I’m not liking the risk factor. I’m not even sleeping in a closed room, just...
Rabbit Selling Carrots
This roommate thing is taking up so much of my time. Setting appointments, then some people cancel because they’ve already found a place. Spot cleaning and making sure things look right. My intuition is developed to the point that I can tell if someone is not interested right away. Then it’s painful to have to sit through their “lighthearted” banter and bs.
Really...
Fade to Black
My birthday is in about 3 weeks. My main thought for today: If I can’t get past my health issue within the next 54 weeks, I’m out. Every time I have an episode, I let go of another element of my life that is holding me here. Family, plans, work, none of it matters. Evil has found my achilles heel. Psychic trauma from being humiliated because of my illness is unbearable. Period.
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Stuffy Ears
Trying to get myself together. Had a really traumatic weekend. Worked in a huge center and had some sort of reaction. It had to be from the air system. Nothing else was different about my life. I just can’t tolerate anything that isn’t natural. I left feeling like I was covered in chemicals! My nose and ears are stuffed and my throat feels “thick” and my breathing is...
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Enough Poverty Bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feeling really messed up right now. I’ve been smelling the smell of mildew somewhere near where I’ve been sleeping. At first, I thought it was coming from outside. Then it started raining for days on in and even with the windows closed, I still smell it.
My immune system is so sensitive that I’m afraid to throw it out of whack. I have heavy dark circles under my eyes now. ...
