May 2012
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Hmmm, doing a lot of research about herbs and health. Apparently, I’m taking the king of mushrooms (Reishi) and the king of herbs (fresh organic basil leaves). Then why do I feel like a peasant? Wait, not just a peasant, but a jailed peasant.
The following is a list of the herbal “major players” from around the world. Of these, I’ve been taking: Goji, Ashwagandha,...
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Jing, Qi & Shen
“Having a basic understanding of traditional energetics from a specific system can help you choose the right herbal adaptogens to use.
I suggest using whatever system of classification you are most familiar with and apply it to all of the above mentioned adaptogenic herbs. For sake of avoiding confusion, through these pages I stick to using the Chinese system of classification since it is...
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Quasi-Abandonment
I’ve lost belief in any omnipotent being that is connected to individuals humans and is knowledgeable of their personal pain, struggle and especially, their capacity to withstand more pain and struggle. Sorry.
Forget about my particular pain and struggle, my proof is the history of humanity, including those victims of heinous atrocities.
However, I don’t believe we’re just...
My Head, Not Yours
Up early doing laundry. I checked my email and said yes to costume design a film. Got back and re-read the email. They want me to work FOR FREE! I”m flattered that they liked my online portfolio but bummed about the free part.
I wrote them back and attempted to negotiate a small fee. After all, I’ll be using my kit supplies. Let’s see what they say. The cast is huge but...
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Double Dealing Designers
Just discovered another costume designer who also does production design: Catherine Martin: http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0552039/
Eiko Ishioka is another one (RIP). Regarding Eiko, I was surprised the Oscars yearly RIP tribute didn’t mention her. She was really accomplished.
Nauseated
Right now I feel nauseated. The entertainment industry is not for the faint of heart. I’m still in shock from some of the ugly behavior I witnessed from my associates.
Someone once told me that the entertainment industry magnifies a person’s characteristics. I know that’s true of me. I am a very logical person who doesn’t entertain bullshit. That may come off as...
The Next Thing.
The play closed yesterday. Something really weird and eerie went down w/ the dresser/wardrobe person. She just turned on me. Not only that, she turned others against me. Why? I have no idea. I thought she was a well adjusted individual but her actions say otherwise.
Not only did she send out emails trying to get people to think I don’t know what I’m doing, yesterday, every time...
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Avatar Sucks!
Watching Avatar, YAWN! Horrid, stilted dialogue. The Time Traveler’s Wife is on at the same time. I saw it, much better movie… I should switch.
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It's Always The Director
Ugggg! Can’t wait to get out of here and get a fresh start in LA. My cousin, who lives in LA, emailed me back. He lives near or in the San Fernando Valley. I have no idea where that is. I saw a great book on LA that I need to get and study. I’m guessing I could stay w/ him for a week or two if I had to. The weird thing is that I NEVER welcome relatives into my apartment because...
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Almost to LA!
How stupid! I spent all day forming a promotional email blast, which included 3 photos, to send to associates on gmail. Well, the pictures didn’t even go through! What’s worse is that no one told me. I found out randomly. I would resend but clearly no one cares. I even sent one to a close friend :( Luckily, I also included my website, which has plenty of pictures.
I hate doing...
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Acupuncture, FTW!
So excited! I just booked a $20 acupuncture appt. for tomorrow! An associate told me about this low cost place that’s a part of POCA, a network of acupuncture places catering to low income people. She told me two weeks ago but I took last week “off” to rest. I got a few sessions last year but never had enough money to go back. This info is the best blessing I’ve had in...
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Me & My Sewing Machine
Huge project over. I learned a lot. I may have gained a reputation as a trouble maker. That would be wholly untrue and unfortunate. I am very careful not to drift into the realm of bullshit. That’s the simplest way to put it. I prefer to stay connected to facts… and a sewing machine.
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A Week in the Life of Indie Designer: Emilio Sosa
Emilio Sosa was just nominated for a Tony Award from Porgy and Bess! That’s great! He was on Project Runway but didn’t win. Here’s a day in his life. Maybe that’ll be me one day…
Posted in ESOSA Blog, Fashion on January 16, 2012
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In this week’s edition of the Road to...
April 2012
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Stipend Madness
What is it with giving grown-ass adults a STIPEND for theater costume design. I’m talking $100 - $200 total! Who can do these jobs? Either you have to be married, live with your parents, or have a poor wish.
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Confirmation!
I just got somewhat of a confirmation that the person I thought was using drugs or going senile is in fact using drugs.
My friend saw him and immediately told me that he’s a coke head. I never mentioned to her anything about him. She said she could tell by the degeneration of his facial muscles around his nose and cheeks. I thought it was some sort of birth defect. I knew I
Almost Overwhelmed
Totally trying to not be overwhelmed. I’ve had a few interviews for gigs but no cigar. I am getting a new roommate tonight which means that, once again, I had to sweep and mop almost every room and make things presentable. I need to do laundry. I need to handle my massive student loan default debacle. My mom is starting her treatment next week, so that’s going to be big.
I pulled...
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Fake
Just watched Project Runway Season 8, the last season I will watch. Nothing can ever convince me that the show wasn’t fixed from the very first episode. Gretchen should have been out early on. Even her audition garments looked dowdy. I knew from her first win that she was somehow going to be a favorite. Michael C should have been in the final 3, no question.
And how did no one mention...
March 2012
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Ode to An Idiot
Why do you act the way you do?
Is it early onset senility or early-exposure drug usage?
Why do you have the memory of a hamster?
Is it early onset senility or early-exposure drug usage?
Why must we go over the same things over and over again?
Is it early onset senility or early-exposure drug usage?
Why do you not respond to my emails either completely or at all?
Is it early onset senility...
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Confirmed
Okay. I finally FIGURED IT ALL OUT. I am definitely allergic to chemicals. For two days, I slept on my old bed, which was covered with a plastic cover (put there for my roommate). Low and behold, my symptoms increased in severity! I took off the cover and they went down.
I also remembered that in 2007, when I starting getting symptoms, I had my bathroom and hallway re-painted because I was...
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Cat Shit
How strange. Not 4 days after my roommate left, my mom calls me to tell me that she has to do out-patient treatment for her liver and may need someone to care for her. Of course I volunteered my bedroom. I have to find a temp home for my cat though. The other elephant in the room is that, how am I going to meet my expenses without a roommate?
My sister and I had a talk, which devolved into...
Life Among the Savages
My interview tomorrow was just cancelled! They found someone. Grime-y! I only planned out my ENTIRE week based on the interview. It was for a paid gig in May. I even used my charge card to get an outfit to wear. Thankfully, I found out before I trudged to Kinkos to get copies for my portfolio.
And, the other short film shoot that I was supposed to do but backed out was canceled after the...
Looking for a Sign
I asked for a sign as to whether I should to forward with getting a new roommate. Well, I went into the bedroom where my old roommate was staying and found that the window gate was not fully locked, plus the window was open. I had told her several times that it’s really hard to lock but it’s really important because the window is off the fire escape. So basically, anyone could have...
From All Sides
Getting hit from all sides. My roommate moved out last night and because the door was propped open, the cigarette smoke from a new neighbor poured into the apartment. On top of that, there’s a mildew smell in the area I’m sleeping in. The building manager gave me a mold kit yesterday to set up.
And lastly, while I was sleeping, this mysterious odor that’s been occurring since...
Isn't It Ironic?
My best friend, who lives in LA, also now needs a roommate! She has a huge apartment in downtown LA. It has 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms so each person has her own bathroom!
It would be perfect!
Meanwhile, I have to see two more people tonight. I’m about to throw in the towel and just say F it.
I’m not liking the risk factor. I’m not even sleeping in a closed room, just...
Rabbit Selling Carrots
This roommate thing is taking up so much of my time. Setting appointments, then some people cancel because they’ve already found a place. Spot cleaning and making sure things look right. My intuition is developed to the point that I can tell if someone is not interested right away. Then it’s painful to have to sit through their “lighthearted” banter and bs.
Really...
Fade to Black
My birthday is in about 3 weeks. My main thought for today: If I can’t get past my health issue within the next 54 weeks, I’m out. Every time I have an episode, I let go of another element of my life that is holding me here. Family, plans, work, none of it matters. Evil has found my achilles heel. Psychic trauma from being humiliated because of my illness is unbearable. Period.
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Stuffy Ears
Trying to get myself together. Had a really traumatic weekend. Worked in a huge center and had some sort of reaction. It had to be from the air system. Nothing else was different about my life. I just can’t tolerate anything that isn’t natural. I left feeling like I was covered in chemicals! My nose and ears are stuffed and my throat feels “thick” and my breathing is...
