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This seems appropriate this morning. Woke up feeling just a bit bummed out. Interviewed for a costume design job on a play but didn’t get the job. The whole thing seemed very serendipitous. For one thing, the ad wasn’t placed in the correct place online so I saw it only by chance. Turns out, the play is based on my favorite author of all time - - Octavia Butler. What’s more, it’s eerily similar to the play I just did. It’s small and doesn’t use full costumes, just elements that represent the costumes. Plus, it takes place in the future, which totally falls into the genre(s) I adore.
It even has military costumes, which I just did. I think the director didn’t pick me because I don’t have a degree in CD. The director went to NYU and I have a hunch a former student from their CD department got the gig.
Plays are tricky like that. A CD degree is almost crucial. Hmmm, now that I’ve started sewing again, I really need to sew my ass off so that I can literally make anything.
Sadly, I knew this when I graduated several years ago but never had the time or money to either take classes or invest in the right equipment.
Oh the joy of poverty…
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I’ve been thinking about this program for some time. Should I do it or not? Most people say “no”. It’s only a year but it’s pricey. Still, I would know all about the industry in L.A. … Bottom line, if I had the money, I would do it.
Did a little experimenting today. I took my “Calm-Magnesium” this morning. I felt very calm when I went to meet my director friend to see about him guest directing at the studio I worked with last year.
I decided not to react to anyone, just be calm. I wanted to prove something I had been observing. And sure enough, there’s really no love between strangers in NYC. Ran into lots of people on the bus, in the store, on the street. Everybody has an attitude. Everybody is a diva. It’s really pathetic. I’m happy that I just glided through it with a smile on my face. I don’t / can’t always do that but, for some reason, today was no problem.
It’s okay. I believe that humans, are fundamentally negative, disturbed beings. That’s life.
On another note, I spent hours doing a budget, finally. I set up an elaborate spreadsheet with running balances. Great.
I allocated $200 for food per month. Not enough and I know that but there’s nothing I can do. There are some other faults with the budget. I mean, I did the best I could do with allocating a small amount of funds.
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If I said it once, I said it twice, SCREW ALL BANKS!!!! I have a little credit union account that I opened 18 months ago where I was putting tiny amounts of money from random sources. Like the 1 or 2 dollar checks from class actions suits, etc.
Well, after one year, they started charging me $8 if my balance was less than $500! I had $16 in my account and now I have $1!! Fuck those bitches!
I’m so pissed. All banks do is EAT YOUR FUCKING MONEY!
No more. I’m keeping my money in my apartment, screw this!
Right now, I have the mentality of a 10 year old. I’m trying to figure out a “budget” and I don’t know where to start. And “budget” is in quotes because it will be a joke.
Here are the categories I’ve come up with:
Bills (includes tithes)
Catch up & pre-pay rent
Los Angeles
Amsterdam/birthday
Save
Repay borrowed money
Food
Supplements
Operating costs (includes art related and clothing)
Expensive items (cell, computer, sewing machine)
10 categories. My first thought was to divide my income into 10. Childish. Well, at least I have all the categories.
So far, I’ve already f’d up. I had to pay my American Express before I had the money so my bank charged me $34. To make up for it and punish myself, no more veggie burgers until 2/21. Also Childish.
The director of the short film has a studio here. A director I worked with last year had/has a studio space here too. I so want a studio here. I really need one for my costume clothes and other art stuff. The manager showed me two, both $500 a month; a steal. I really wish I could afford it.
Of course, I could share it, but that would only cause problems because I really need every inch of space.
The play was a huge hit. Everyone loved the costumes and I’m so incredibly stoked. The cast was really nice, with one exception. The director and direction was brilliant. I could watch it over and over. It may play in the summer for a longer run.
I did the costumes design and also the wardrobe supervision, which is super tough. This is the second job where I did both. I’m learning a lot about supervision though. I did a lot of sewing and alterations. I surprised myself!
I dragged out my old sewing machine which I had not used in a super long time. I need to get a new one but the old one held up well. I actually gave away a few sewing machines over the years; ones that were given to me. I’m weird that way. I need a completely new machine to be inspired. I think I will start making clothes again.
While working on the play, I tried a sample of this herbal tea from the Dominican Republic called Mamajuana. It really helped me! It has, like, 20 herbs in it, including sarsaparilla, which I already knew to be helpful.
I’ve also been drinking homemade goji berry smoothies, that’s helping so much! I realize that one of my big health problems is abuse of my adrenals from consistent, prolonged stress. Goji really helps with that.
My unemployment was increased, hallelujuh! I’m so behind in my bills and owe so many people, I don’t even know where to start. I literally have brain freeze, regarding parsing out money, which is bad because I owe my utility bill.
Got booked to do a short film. The director and I are not seeing eye to eye at all. More on that later. I really just want to get it done. He’s being vague about the actual shoot. I’ll state it here: if this doesn’t get shot by the end of Feb., I’m outie.
Had an interview last night for another play. It was weird interviewing. The last two jobs I got, I got on the strength of my online portfolio or recommendation (the way it should be). I suck in interviews, lol.
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Yes, aka, compassion for assholes :)
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